Bird in my Head

I sit in a dark room thinking about darkness
I have a glass of blood in my hands
And a bird flies quietly in my head
I do not know why
I will sit here. For hours to come. And minutes and seconds
Thinking about darkness
All the light that I lost
And I cannot look around me
There is a bear which plays the flute
And I do not understand why
There is darkness around me
And I am the light.
And soon I’ll burn myself out
As I burnt my candle turning it into the wildfires
The ghosts play the piano
And I can not dance
But I do not know why
I can hear laughter and people talking
But it must be all in my head
Yet I do not know why

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It’s like the days are not even days any more.
Night isn’t night anymore.
I am not even who I was anymore.
The sky has turned into ash, it isn’t blue anymore
The moon is a black dot, it isn’t the moon anymore
The sea has turned into soot, it isn’t it anymore
The tree upon which I gazed outside
It is not standing there anymore…perhaps it travelled north or towards a dusty gloom
I don’t know anymore
There is so much dark now, I don’t want the light anymore
I loved someone once
I don’t love anymore

Prison-break

After the dawn broke she looked at the sun as it was coming up and said I will have nothing to do with love.

And as the dusk turned blue into a dusty hue of pink and grey. She looked at the moon and said I will have everything to do with love.

Dipoles

The oppressed mind–makes the eyes stare in the dark

Every one and no one was to rejoice

In past memories and future shadows

An inkling–

The past has faces while the present has emotions

But the eyes constantly stare

A tune, a song, what is it!?

Which plays in the hollow of the naked dark day

The tired body–makes the soul dream

Of freedom–from the shakles

Each and all were to part–

You took that road which I was not allowed to take

I took that path which you could not find

The eyes, constantly gape

In the glistening bright night–none stirred

Each toiled!

And the eyes….they stared, in the space, deep into infinity

Then, the soul was free, so it was lost

The body–was dead and so it was born again!

Copper

Let’s discover Time together. See what happens. How it does so.

Your wrinkled face will tell you that the person you see in the mirror is not you. Is it really you?

Let’s shine together. In our dullness, let’s just shine.

Copper. Just copper.

Let’s see everyone else fly high while we stand below. Shooting them down?

No. Lets build wings. From scratch.

Let’s dig for diamonds.

Wade through the triumph-the sea-the delusion.

Copper. Is it?

What is this music that goes about? While i watch everyone dance!

Let’s get away from here. Run. Hide. Up. Far. Below. Lost. Vanish.

Copper.

Clink our glasses to a toast. Smile. Laugh. Talk. Lie.

Copper

Forever Lost

Have you ever had a walk…….alone. On a never ending road…Even in your imagination?

I have…many times. With just me by my side.

And so as i walk, there is a cascade…of mostly feelings, from the eyes.

Mostly the wind hits the face many times….as if slapping you and telling you how lonely you are, always were..and maybe, always will be.

Its an empty road, but even in the emptiness, there are memories.

Memories can be tough on some one who does not know how to deal with them.

You get to know that your life has a lot of loops and it is all tangled. And you are the only one to make it right.

Listening to the world go by is not very easy for some one who does not want to let it go.

You remain silent, because there isn’t anything to say.

You know you are being followed, by your shadow…and you know you will take it nowhere, after all its you shadow and shadows follow where ever we take them.

And you want to reach the horizon, but you still have a long way to go. And you are tired, you want to sit somewhere, but there is no place to sit. So you just stand there for hours, not knowing what to do.

Your pupil will stare in a trance, because that is all there is to it. that is all you can do.

It is just a long road..a stretched out long road.

And its then, that you forget what you came looking for, because you know you were finding something..but what?

You don’t know the answer. And many cars pass you by…but you are walking.

You are tired but you must go on.

And whats ironic is that you don’t even remember why.

You have no one to talk to, except yourself.  And that drives you crazy.

Suddenly you realize that you are lost.Because you don’t know where you are going to and you don’t remember where you came from.

Because you left it far behind. 

You are in the middle of nowhere.

And you are helpless. So you sit down at the side of the road, and recall everything.

Tears gush out of your eyes..and that music in you ears isn’t  magical anymore. But its still there.

No you are not crazy, you just wanted to find…something that you don’t remember anymore.

You are just sitting there, while the people in the cars stop at you and look at you with pity. But you don’t know the faces at all.

You realize how triumphant it all is. It seems that you have been going on for infinity.

Then realization hits you…you have always been lost.

You never knew where you were going to. And you had forgotten a long while where you came from.

So you just sit there….realizing …..for a long time.

That is when it all becomes clear. In your head and in your heart.

So you get back on your feet..and start moving…

You know..that you were always lost. You are lost right now..and you must keep moving till you get somewhere.

Or till you figure it all out. Or till you remember. Because you know, that the road does lead somewhere..

So you keep following it, while your shadow follows you..and the music is still there….

You know…that you are Forever Lost.

And you must keep going so you can figure out why.

Till that time comes…You remain..FOREVER LOST!